dear jamie.

i used to love winter.we had traditions then-with my dearest j.we used to go and had a nice coffee while watching the rain.we used to miss the snow,seing the snowflakes falling was a blessing for us.snow used to make us feel innocent,and hopeful-snow was our only reason to hope,to believe,to smile. to believe in love.and to smile.♥
snow used to make us happy.
now we fall apart.
different cities,different habits,
different seasons.
i want to feel the same cold with you,but you're in spring,and i'm still in winter,like always.
there is always winter in this city.
christmas is in the air,we're excited like always.
in different cities,we're waiting our favorite day to come.
at least we'll be together,i know i should be thankful for that.
but still,i don't wanna get used to living without you.
we could only be a whole when we were together,
and know i'm half missing.
i miss you,every minute.
i miss my half,everyday.
i want my half back,
i want to be whole again.

i don't love winters anymore.
i'm about to forget the taste of our specially flavoured coffee,which is our favorite.
i don't wanna get used to this bad coffee.
i don't wanna get used to living without you.

i told you about the little pink snowflake ball,
the minute i saw it,i knew that i had to buy it for you.
but i can't even find it here,
we don't even buy each other christmas presents anymore even though it's still our favorite event of a year.

i miss you.
i miss you so much.
i love you so much.

i want to be whole again,

your dearest b.