3 Şubat 2008 Pazar

Dizzy bedlam

Surrounded by the emptiness
Feeling dizzy in this loneliness
After a couple of cheap bottles
I'm back again to my bedlam
Oh how I wish you were here right now
Not you,accurately.
I wish someone here with me right now
Not you,for sure.
You're not even honest to me
Honesty had to come first.
I don't wanna see this upset kid
When I look into your eyes again
I just wanna see a big boy.
Confident boy.
Big honest boy.
But you haven't been honest to me ever.
Illusions becoming clearer
The ache of emptiness cuttting deeper
After a couple of years out of myself
I'll be back again to this bedlam
Oh how I wish I could hurt you
Hurt you so bad
Make you cry
I hate your past doesn't involving me
When I had to be your whole past
And future
But you can't even be my present
Not always,accurately
Sometimes yes
Not always,for sure.

Winter.

Crystal flakes falling above
Time to shine with crystals on my head
With my fur coat and new boots
I'm ready to take back my sanity

Mirror mirror,where is the words
Telling me I'm beautiful
If you wouldn't say it when
I'm wearing white diamonds
You'll never say it then
I'll might never wear the white
While waiting for my man

Conversation circles began in my head
Your parfume filled my head
As the sky turned red
With cheap bottles and dead cigarettes
I've lost my sanity
Again