Dizzy bedlam

Surrounded by the emptiness

Feeling dizzy in this loneliness

After a couple of cheap bottles

I'm back again to my bedlam

Oh how I wish you were here right now

Not you,accurately.

I wish someone here with me right now

Not you,for sure.

You're not even honest to me

Honesty had to come first.

I don't wanna see this upset kid

When I look into your eyes again

I just wanna see a big boy.

Confident boy.

Big honest boy.

But you haven't been honest to me ever.

Illusions becoming clearer

The ache of emptiness cuttting deeper

After a couple of years out of myself

I'll be back again to this bedlam

Oh how I wish I could hurt you

Hurt you so bad

Make you cry

I hate your past doesn't involving me

When I had to be your whole past

And future

But you can't even be my present

Not always,accurately

Sometimes yes

Not always,for sure.