Walk away.

i was naive.the thought of your love was like a candy.artificially sweet,i was deceived by the wrapper of yours.guess what?now im officialy bruised but i learned how to stand back,how to survive.but still i can't stop my suffering.
i need to walk away.
i just need to walk away.
walk away.
get away
from you.

i should have known.i was used for amusement.it was all an illusion.i just don't know what to do.every step i take leads to a mistake.everything is an illusion.even my reflection in the mirror.so blur.so vulnerable.i just want an answer.i just want an explanation.

what did i do to deserve?you knew.you knew from the beginning.you just knew...all i got to say is that,you were acting.yes,you are an actor as everybody know.you should be nominated for oscar,you are the best actor i've fucking ever seen.but thanks anyway.thanks to you,i've seen the people i've never thought they existed.you disgust me.all your lies,all the pretending,just for your amusement right?you fucked up my life just for your amusement?

thanks to you and all your fucking friends,im not gonna trust anyone.i lost my trust in people.cuz there are a lot of people round the world and that scares me.scares me a lot.just need to fucking walk away from you.need to get away.walk away from you..

Dizzy bedlam

Surrounded by the emptiness

Feeling dizzy in this loneliness

After a couple of cheap bottles

I'm back again to my bedlam

Oh how I wish you were here right now

Not you,accurately.

I wish someone here with me right now

Not you,for sure.

You're not even honest to me

Honesty had to come first.

I don't wanna see this upset kid

When I look into your eyes again

I just wanna see a big boy.

Confident boy.

Big honest boy.

But you haven't been honest to me ever.

Illusions becoming clearer

The ache of emptiness cuttting deeper

After a couple of years out of myself

I'll be back again to this bedlam

Oh how I wish I could hurt you

Hurt you so bad

Make you cry

I hate your past doesn't involving me

When I had to be your whole past

And future

But you can't even be my present

Not always,accurately

Sometimes yes

Not always,for sure.

Winter.

Crystal flakes falling above
Time to shine with crystals on my head
With my fur coat and new boots
I'm ready to take back my sanity

Mirror mirror,where is the words
Telling me I'm beautiful
If you wouldn't say it when
I'm wearing white diamonds
You'll never say it then
I'll might never wear the white
While waiting for my man

Conversation circles began in my head
Your parfume filled my head
As the sky turned red
With cheap bottles and dead cigarettes
I've lost my sanity
Again